hydrateddesertflower

I wrote a whole post and it auto-saved to a blank page. =( so the resulting entry may not be as elequent or fully formed because I am recreating from a fallable memory. 

I want to differentiate what I mean when I say Dream. But before I do I want to say english, while not my first language, is now my primary language, and it is so limiting in not only the lack of specificity, but in the context of world-building. I won't get into it fully here, if you want to read about the topic and speak more on it together dear reader, feel f How Language Shapes Our Perception of Time, Space, and Reality and The Linguistic Relativity Hypothesis, then let's chat!  I'll say this for context and then move on to my new terms. As a multi-cultural, multi-lingual person, I can see the ways in which english limits our ability to see the worlds that exist in communal interdependencies that humans as stewards of each other and nature, as well as the metaphysical perceptions of realities.  

My terms: Dream-Building (DB) refers to the dreaming we do as world-builders in this corporal-conscious world.  Dream-Traveling (DT) is when I am asleep in the corporal realms and my consciousness travels to other worlds, other dimensions and other timelines. Many times I am lucid for this and my lucidity is like a dial, sometimes I am fully lucid, and sometimes I am less lucid but enough to be aware I am dreaming and remember when I awake. And within that spectrum their is a third dimension of choice, so more like a spherical spectrum; weather or not I am lucid, I can still choose to change the reality of the circumstances or move about the spaces, or I can just be along for the ride, watching things play out as I observe. For me describing my dreams would take me novel length entries that I don't have the desire or patience to document. But I share the ones that stand out. Some are extraordinarily fascinating to me, but most seem boring or of little importance to others when I have shared in the past. So this term is what I'll use in my posts for those who care to read about them. I don't share them all. Some feel like sharing them would bring the eyes of those who wish to harm or harness my gifts for ill gains. But if this is of interest to you and you want to verbally talk about let me know. 

As for Dream-Building DB, I / we do this collectively to create our realities here daily. For many that statement alone feels invalidating or even like gaslighting their experiences. This is in no way to negate or dismiss the very real systemic oppression that exists, but that too was once dreamed up in the minds of sadistic men hell bent on violence and extraction.  We get to, and MUST dream of the world we want to live in and build towards it every day. We collectively all agree to the rules of the game and feel trapped by circumstance in their game, their game where we must struggle to survive. When our ancestors had been living in right relationship with the earth as the stewards of each other. 

My desire is to improve my storytelling skills to help bring people to the ancestral knowing's of who were were and how we cared for each other pre-colonization. My goal is to bring hope by showing those who can't see the path that it is there. Walking this bridge is lonely and I keep trying to find ways to show others that I am not standing on thin air.  The evidence of the work of those whom fought and died to help us build the little freedoms we have now are still here.  They have built it together and we must continue to build it for ourselves and the future generations. We build in collaboration with our ancestors together and we can continue to build the bridge to the world we want to live in now. Let's not just struggle to survive in the world dreamt up in the imaginations of sadistic psychopaths. Let's every day find a way to rebuild the collectively liberated world we know was taken from us.